I typically don't paint men, but when an image appears in my mind via a dream I wake up and flush it out on the wood. Lately I have been realigning my desires to heal from the toxic (lack of) relationship with the man who helped me create two of the most beautiful children ever. For 5 consistent years I have subscribed to this rocky rollercoaster of mid to low peaks of pseudo happiness. After 4 years I discovered he was the trigger of many of my anxiety attacks.
Perhaps I held hope for him to one day "get it together" and be a active parent in the lives of his children but.... the reality is he moved on and created a whole new family. If that ain't a sign, I don't know what is. This concept came to me after working on my computer for hours. I posted on social media and a friend pointed out that the piece reminded her of the Native American's interpretation and understanding of shadows. I was not as a familiar so I googled.... This ‘portal’ of understanding translates as your shadow. This interactive understanding is an awareness that moves with you, except in case where you’ve been knocked out of alignment with your ‘portal’, in which case it can be said you’ve ‘lost your shadow’, a serious and even life threatening circumstance; with your loss of ability to ‘read’ surrounding environment. This ‘portal’ that follows (or precedes or surrounds) oneself is a critical component of essence or being in context of survival. If you cannot ‘read’, you cannot take what is offered, as you cannot take what you cannot see and you’ve become out-of-sync. As well, because your surrounding environment is sentient and aware, you may easily become the environment’s ‘offering’ for lack of this ability to read; this loss of yourself is recognized by the greater social awareness (your natural surroundings.) In this case, you could easily become the surprised kill. This last is akin to the wolf identifying and taking the weak of the herd. They ‘know’ because they have ‘shadow’ or portal of understanding as well. When the environment, which is sentient, aware and social, knows you are out-of-sync, it’s only a matter of time and you will be taken. Wow, this pretty sums up the thought process behind this piece. While it's not done yet, I will keep working on and see where the energy carries me. source: https://ronaldthomaswest.com/2018/04/06/lost-shadow/
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This color has meant so much to me in my new season of 30. Not sure why because for so long this color represent masculinity to me. However i was called to the beauty of this color while on my Visibly Invisible and Ode to Old Lovers pieces. I researched this color's significance and historic meanings.
During the Renaissance era this color blue was the pricest most expensive paint a painter could use. During the 14th and 15th century it was coupled with Gold when creating beautiful manuscripts and whenever it was used it was used to paint the robes of Mary and Christ the baby. When I looked at what the color blue means in general- here's what stuck out the most: -Represents both the sky and the sea, and is associated with open spaces, freedom, intuition, imagination, expansiveness, inspiration, and sensitivity. Blue also represents meanings of depth, trust, loyalty, sincerity, wisdom, confidence, stability, faith, heaven, and intelligence. -As the color of the spirit, it invokes rest -The color blue in many cultures is significant in religious beliefs, brings peace, or is believed to keep the bad spirits away -Too much blue can create feelings of melancholy, negativity, sadness, self-righteousness, and self-centeredness. Too little blue brings about qualities of suspicion, depression, stubbornness, timidity, and unreliability. After my research, I assumed the meaning that blue directly correlated my consciousness of self. Take what you know and engage with my work. Hey there. It has surely been awhile since I have engaged my art. My world has changed, I am not the mother to 2 beautiful children. Marli & Kingston.
I have been in some what of a rut trying to reconnect with my voice and my direction. Painting and drawing have always been my first loves, however lately my desire to step behind the lens has grown from a passive past time to something I taking on full force. I want to tell the story of the mother, the black girl and pause the magic we create for one moment with a photo. It has been awhile since i engaged with photography, especially digital. Stay tuned.
I am thankful and appreciative of the opportunity to have worked under the mentorship of the renowned Della Wells for the last year. Bi monthly, Della and I would sit down to discuss my art, process and my voice. I set out on this journey not really expecting anything other than an opportunity to meet more artists. What I got in return in is priceless and has set me up for continued success within my art career.
Della asked me tough questions. Some I had answers to, while others I did not.... still don't. I am blessed in knowing that I have peaked into a lane where my voice is beginning to shine through and speak visually for all you view my work. I am honored to have shared this experience and I look forward to my continued growth and relationship with Della Wells! |
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